short-lived, but it felt so warm do you ever think of me when your hands are cold? and ill fade into photographs that were never taken but it’s still so picture-perfect “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say just to write a better a verse or two “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say if i ever even get to it’s hard to say goodbye with a smile it’s hard to say goodbye the best part is you don’t even know at all and i die where i left off the edge of your right side i know i’ll never be the same when i wake up but your hair is everywhere i guess i’ll scream infidelities “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say just to write a better a verse or two “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say if i ever even get to it’s hard to say goodbye with a smile it’s hard to say goodbye the best part is you don’t even know at all and i die where i left off you look so good without makeup you look so good without me “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say just to write a better hook that hurts “what song do i remind you of?” i’ll say if you even remember it’s hard to say goodbye with a smile it’s hard to say goodbye the best part is you don’t even know at all and i die where i left off the edge of your right side.

"you should know, but i'm telling," like the way you're making love with your eyes into mine i'm watching my life pixelate in fallen graces say it like you mean it, so you won't be the only one biting your tongue on time fake it, afraid of always breaking 'cause you'd rather just fake it afraid of always breaking from the walls of my heart to the air that you leave when you breathe there's no cure for allure when you're so bittersweet i'm trying to sign off you’re asking for a noose for two but i’m not saying no for good these feelings write themselves i hope i never dream a better you so say it like you mean it, so you won't be the only one biting your tongue on time fake it, afraid of always breaking 'cause you'd rather just fake it afraid of always breaking from the walls of my heart to the air that you breathe when you leave there's no cure for allure when you're so bittersweet; i'm trying to sign off i never loved enough of myself i'll never love enough for myself.

i think of you tonight i think of you again.

here’s a bitter pill that’s just as sweet as you and i swallow it down with my pride i know i always bite it, i lied but i’m dying inside of my own hell can you just show me the way you use me up a little bit more than i could recall call you in a second if i get the numbers wrong like we’re meant to be i’m just a cynic in the sense that makes my heart feel like a lie if we don’t feel the same, i blame myself for you it’s getting late again we both know something that we can’t admit believe in everything i’m fed, so i can hear you smile instead but i can’t have your pity there’s enough for the both of us so fuck your therapists, ’cause they just want to feel better we’re all your masochists for the sake of love i’m just a cynic in the sense that makes my heart feel like a lie if we don’t feel the same, i blame myself for you running out of your love and out of yourself drown in chemicals just to see it through if we don’t feel the same, i blame myself for you i know i always need more than you want me to take i know it’s fucking worth it if it hurts in the end the only thing i can’t break are the rules in my head i don’t want to be fixated, i just want to be fixed (cross my heart and hope to die a manic pixie death wish) i’m just a cynic in the sense that makes my heart feel like a lie if we don’t feel the same, i blame myself for you running out of your love and out of yourself drown in chemicals just to see it through if we don’t feel the same, i blame myself for you.

i want to believe in so badly i’m falling i want to believe in so badly i’m calling why’s it never easy to phone home when your heart’s on speed dial? i could never say the words; they’re true too good to be true i’ll never be him, and you’ll never be her that’s all right i’ll never be there, and you’ll never be here that’s all right i want to believe in so badly i’m falling i want to believe in so badly i’m calling why’s it never easy to phone home when your heart’s on speed dial? i could never say the words; they’re true too good to be true was it never easy to stop? why’s it never easy? i’ll never be him, and you’ll never be her that’s all right i’ll never be there, and you’ll never be here that’s all right i’m calling.

i wish i was anything but me or myself started dying to live faster i know my head’s a prison, my heart’s on death row and i’m writing you from the afterlife i need love to hurt, so i know it’s real and close my eyes to sleep tonight trying to fight myself in vain the scars were a part of your design i’ll find truth in disposable lies and wait until my fading conscious dies the chemicals don’t even work i guess it’s not worth it, no don’t cry from your eyes or wrists but for help this time don’t cry these days i’m losing light, but i hope i’m still flickering in the back of your mind you never move on, but you always get better i guess i found out the hard way i guess i found out the hard way once again.